Next week is Thanksgiving. By now Nard and I would be planning the meal, and also finding who house we will crash to eat. I do not feel like going anywhere. Most of it is from when I walk through the door at anyone’s house It will be a reminder that the person they grew up with, raised played with as a child is gone. I really do not want to but anyone through that. It will be hard enough next summer when I attend his/our family reunion. I did not think it would be this hard, but it is.
I spend more time than I will like crying. Yesterday while I was driving in the streets of Savannah, I bawled like a baby. I really hating my life right now.
On the flip side of this, I am have a lot to be thankful for this year. My kids are healthy as I am. Now life is not perfect as I would like it to be. I am dealing with a lot of bumps in the road right now. To be honest I feel like everything is falling apart. In spite of all of that I am still here.
Stay strong for the kids, That is what I am trying to do right now. If I fall apart then everything else will also.
I will be starting a YouTube channel soon, I will post the link to it when it is set up.