Today is an OK day, So far I have not cried, which is good. I forgot I agreed to babysit my niece who is two. So my sister was rigging my bell at 6;45 this morning.
Today I am really missing Nard, It is a strange feeling. He is gone I get that, But I am having a hard time fully accepting that fact. I hope a lot of it is because I am lonely or if the reality that I have nothing to do anymore after months of care giving, and years of being a wife and homemaker.
On a related topic, I made up my mind not to be sad anymore, to grieve; Yes, But to make the choice not to be sad all the time. Well I posted this fact to a widows blog I belong to, Well guess? what I got flamed for it. So much for expressing what I feel.
Well moving on, I am planning a trip (well a few). Going to see some friends. Need to get out of the house. It will be fun…